Emo Days No More!! Happy Bug is Back to Blog

Happy Birthday to the most beautiful, sexy, smart and lovely girl in the world... ME!!!

 Yey!! I turned 26 and I want to reward myself with all my hardwork..

but then I realized that it's mom who does all the hardwork...^^

I really want to apologize for being so emo these past few days.

I guess I'm really just stressed out with everything that is happening with my life.

 Some events are just too overwhelming, but in the end I'm still happy.

So for today's blog it's basically about keeping up with what

happened to me this June, and things that really made me feel special.

Well I wanna start off with one gift I rewarded for myself.

I don't have enough money to splurge on expensive clothes,

but there are things that I might possibly like, and when I like it I will do everything to get it.

 I rarely see shoes that I like these days since I'm pretty much obsessed with makeups.

My admiration for the Kardashians never end,

 and I do a Kardashian reality show marathon every night,

 though I don't know much about clothes & branded goods,

I drool and lust over their expensive designer shoes and bags.

There's this particular ankle boots that I really want the first time I saw it worn by Kim.

I always try to look for replicas or something that looks close to it but I haven't seen any.

Even if I want to have the same shoes that she's wearing, omg it's Prada

.

It costs a whopping $890 and you can purchase it in Saks.

If I convert it into peso, let's say the value of 1 dollar is 43 pesos,

then 890 multiplied by 43 is equivalent to 38,270 pesos!!! Enough to send me back to college for one semester!!

Fortunately, there is this local online store and I found the "almost" exact replica of this shoes that I've been dying to have. Compared to the original, the heels and the platform are not as high as Prada's, and I'm fine with it

coz anything higher than 4 inches will definitely break my ankle, and in worst case, I might break my neck from possibly tripping accidentally due to my extreme clumsiness.

I received my order after a month and when I took it out from its

packaging, all I can say is whoooaaa it's so surreal!!

I'm not sure though, on when will I be able to use it.

It's just sitting there on my shoe rack..

So now, what happened on my birthday?

It was stressful. It's simple, but really a stressful one.

My birthday is always composed of 3 celebrations.

Pre- intra- post.

June 22nd - I promised my officemates that I'm gonna treat them

so I brought a dinner. We're only just 6 employees in our comfy office.

I told my other co-workers to bring their hubbies.

June 23rd - I met my friend whom I know since I was six years old.

I'm so touched he wanted to see me prior to my birthday coz he bought a present.

It's the shirt that I like.

It was used during the historical star formation from my

previous Alma Mater.

I wanted to treat him with lots of foods from McDonald's

since he requested for it.. but then he only asked for a happy meal

and a large float coz he's been suffering from tummy pains for 2 weeks

in a row. Poor him.

Then after meeting Russell I went out for a dinner with my cousins.

After having fun and munching on foods, we went to different makeup stores

and tried swatching lippies at the back of our hands and on our lips.

I really enjoy hanging out with them. They've grown so fast

and they can travel anywhere, and ride a public vehicle comfortably no matter how far

the destination is, whereas for me,

I couldn't still cross the street. They're smarter and have better sense

of direction. I therefore think they will succeed better than me

in the future. 

Around 1:30am of June 24th I went online

and I'm happy to see a lot of birthday greetings and wishes.

My boyfriend called, my family's still awake.. but I was sad that time.

I was thinking of my two friends, who had been with me

since I was little, and now they went to Singapore to work.

It's my first time to celebrate my birthday without them.

Then I was tagged on facebook that there's a video

that my bestfriend had made.

I thought it was just a typical picture compilation.

So the video starts with a simple greeting,

then my pictures with my family,

boyfriend, bestfriend and other friends....

I was literally holding back my tears....

coz mom and dad & my bro's also watching it...

too embarassed to bawl.. and they'll gonna troll on me

if I cry.. I knew it..

but the freaking video is 8 minutes long!!!!!!

In the middle of the vid I can't help it.

I couldn't hold back my tears,

my throat's already dry and my eyes are about

to pop out!! Damn, I cried!!

At first my Mom & Dad are like:

then mom's like:

then dad's like:

and my bro's like:

I was so embarassed but definitely touched.

I couldn't contain both my happiness and sadness.

The state of ambivalence made me like this:

I miss my bestfriends.

 I wish they were with me, having fun on my special day.

I only communicate with them through skype.

On the brighter side, I do received a few cute gifts.

Getting old means getting less, but I'm happy anyway.

Russell gave me a shirt from De La Salle University's

Human Star Event.

when worn:

Nikki gave me two pairs of cute earrings,

which best defines my personality..

After using the second generation of iphone for quite sometime

and still enjoying it, I got a new phone thanks to my

boyfriend..

These days I'm so focused with work.. busy pretending to be busy.

I have so many things in mind and lots of plan to accomplish

before this year ends.

Next on my wish list is everything Chanel!!!

I want a 2.55 flap bag..

A cc logo earrings with pearl drop

A foundation compact..

And I really do want to have these from Louboutin!!!

The Impossible Dream.

I'm not rich, I'm always broke, but it's free to dream. :)

Personal Rant: Goodbye 25!!

I have nothing to blog about this month, I don't know..

I just don't feel like writing, doing something or even putting makeup on.

Too lazy to go out, dress up, or even wear a bra... LOL

I'm too lazy for everything. I guess I need another motivation.

My birthday's coming... few days from now I'll turn 26..

Most of my students, whose age ranges from 30's to mid 40's, are

saying I'm still sooo young to accomplish things and follow my dreams.

But living in the Philippines is quite different. 26 means you're a fully grown adult.
You need to be accomplished in life.. or have a few savings at the bank.

I've been working my ass off for 4 years but still I'm not satisfied with my status..
hence I got the idea of working abroad.

I used to experience a lot of pressure about the idea of tying the knot,

but still, things are not falling into its right place..

Now I have a new goal, but then things are still not falling into its damn place.

Excuse my frustrations in life, though I'm not 50 yet, I think I'm having mid life crisis,
or rather quarter life crisis?!

A month ago I had a plan to work in Singapore with my friends.

But then, maybe, it's not the right time yet.. mom disapproved. dad disapproved.

boyfriend disapproved. bf's family disapproved. aunts and uncles disapproved.

So you think I still can go to SG without messing up with myself?
PSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! &@(#!$%^!!!

Sadly, my besftriends flew there 2 weeks ago already.

I'm not sure if I can follow them as soon as possible.

I also think I'm not ready yet, but I miss my two bestfriends.. so bad.

Let me see, living for a year as a 25 year old adult is kinda hard.

Good things will come but bat shits are there too..

Not sure if there's a significant milestone that happened to me lately..

Life's pretty stagnant and I'm freaking tired of it, but then there are times

that I do enjoy living in my own separate world.
Will I ever commit suicide? HELL NO!!
I don't have any problems, I'm just a little disappointed
at this point in my life, but it's just for today.
Tomorrow my mood's gonna soar again.

As I'm getting older I hate it when people bug me, and approach me.
I just hate some people... I'm trying to like them but it's damn hard.

I got a pretty good advice from my highschool teacher last Saturday and he

taught me how to handle life's stressors and how not to stress myself.

Thank you Sir!! It's really helpful.

I don't expect much from my life as of now, I do enjoy the little things that I have..

my makeups.. and time with my family, friends.

There's no need to hurry and rush things, I still have a long way to go.

Life's offer is still unknown and I know God has better plans..

Sorry God if sometimes I can't wait and I'm too impatient...

I'll try to become a better person, better than I was.

One thing I learned as a 25 year old woman...

DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING.

If it'll happen, IT WILL.

Once again, please excuse my emo self.
Been suffering from multiple personality disorder lately...

Vampire Makeup: The Dark Shadows Victoria Winters

I've been always a fan of dark, mysterious gothic concept of Tim Burton's movies,
from The Nightmare Before Christmas to Alice in Wonderland.

He's a genius director and his creativity has no limitations.

He's known for making quirky movies and for collaborating with his bestfriend, 

Johnny Depp, musician David Elfman and his domestic partner Helena Bonham Carter.

I'm looking forward to see 3 of Tim Burton's new film.
The Dark Shadows, Frankenweenie and The Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D.
3 movies for 2012!

I've been constantly telling my boyfriend that I really want to see the Dark Shadows.
Well at first he doesn't like it, but then, I had few conflicts at home,
had been in a bad mood and been constantly crying and not eating that weekend
and he seems to be so bothered and told me we're gonna see the last full show of that movie.
 Of course it made me happy!!!!!
My weekend, after having too much drama finally ended in a good way.
**It's because I told my mom I wanna work in Singapore with my 2 bestfriends.
 As soon as my plans started to get better
my mom backed out and told me to stay.**

The movie's good, not as fantastic as the Corpse Bride or Edward Scissorhands,
 but the twist and the story itself is fresh and unique.
 It's a famous opera now made into a movie.

Johnny Depp portrayed the role of Barnabas Collins,
who was born in Liverpool in 1700s, got cursed due to being a playboy,
became a vampire and imprisoned for almost 200 years inside his casket.

 The way he speaks using old English is quite funny and amusing.

I can't tell if he' already cursing or just giving his speech.

The movie's fun and I was laughing my heart out.
I learned how to say "kiss my ass" without saying it rudely.

  I posted in my personal social networking site that
I wanted to get Nyx's latest palette which is inspired from the movie itself.
 The next day my best friend gave me 3 lipsticks and shades that
are perfect for achieving a vampire look!! Now I don't want this palette anymore.

  

 Lippies are from Kirkland Borghese.  Shades are Ruby Red, Maple and Plum

The makeups used in the movie are really good.
 I always wanted to become a professional makeup artist,
but not for runways or fashion shows.
Instead, I want to work for special effects for films and movies.
I tried to search for makeup schools for it, but unfortunately
it's only available in America.

  

 I want to try Barnabas Collins' makeup to see if I can really do the same effects

but unfortunately it's not wearable and I will look like a freak walking around like this.

For the makeups used on him, I found out that this look is created by a makeup artist 

named Joel Harlow and it involves paling the skin, creating and applying a prosthetic bridge 

to the nose, pointed ear pieces, hollowing the eyes, vampire teeth,

 creating a wig with odd strands for a fringe and creating false nails and longer fingers.

 This is such a big accomplishment for an artist.

Makeup can change everything. I can even make myself look sick or healthy if I want to.

 

Spoiler Alert: At the end of the movie Victoria Winters did the same thing
that Barnabas Collins' ex-girlfriend did. Since they are cursed, she jumped off
the same cliff where Barnabas and his ex jumped 2 centuries ago.
This time, Victoria lived but she turned into a vampire.
  I fell in love with her vampire makeup look.
Pale skin, dark hollow eyes, dark cyanotic lips.

I think my take for Victoria's makeup is kinda fail.

Mine's wearable and not dark enough, no major cheek contouring and
hollowing of eyes coz I wore it and walked around the office looking like this. ^^

I even scare my student Bloom through my video class with her.^^
You can also say that it's more on Bella Cullen look..
At least it's still vampy. :)

Products Used:

Face

Nyx HD Primer

Revlon Colorstay Liquid Foundation in 200 Nude

Clinique Dermawhite Spot Concealer

Maybelline Clear Smooth Minerals Powder Foundation in CO2 Rose White

Origins Maquillage Compact in Sesame 02

Brows

Elf Eyebrow Kit in Dark Brown

 mixed with

Costco Black Mineral Eyeshadow in Truffle

Eyes

Sugar Skull Cosmetics 88 earth palette

Victoria's Secret Eyeshadow Quad in Sultry

dabbed Kirkland Borhese Lipstick in Rare Ruby

Costco Black Mineral Eyeshadow in Truffle

Costco Dark Brown Eyeshadow in Velvet

Etude House Code B Gel Eyeliner in Strong Black

Christian Dior Diorshow Mascara

Christian Dior Eyeliner in Noir/Black

Cheeks

heavily countoured with a taupe eyeshadow

Lips

Kirkland Borhese Lipliner in Rare Ruby

Kirkland Borhese Lipstick in Rare Ruby mixed with

Kirkland Borhese Lipstick in Maple

If I will add a photo effect like decreasing the temperature and

make it cooler just like what you see from any vampy movies and series,

it will turn out to be like this:

 

According to Psychology, if a person is into anything dark and gothic,
admires withered trees and moonlight,
he or she is most likely suffering from sadness or depression.

I'm not in denial coz most of the time I'm happy, I'm loud and noisy,

but whenever I see something like withered trees on Tumblr
I feel really calm and I'm astonished.

I really want to experience autumn to see how beautiful falling leaves are,
 and I really admire the beauty of moonlight. 

Once, my aunt and I have tried what we call as "moon bathing"
and it's such an awesome experience.
It happened right after an eclipse in 2004 and we brought our blankets outside.
 They don't have much neighbors that time, and you will just see trees and streets.
It's so bright and everything around you is bluish and peaceful.

Enough for this depressing dark story!!!

 We gotta support two 3D movies from Burton this October!

I'm soooo looking forward to it and I want my younger cousins to see

it as well. My boyfriend's been a fan of Jack Skellington since he was little.

I'm gonna take him out for a treat.

Another remake of Tim Burton's 1984 short film,
a dog that comes alive named Frankenweenie.

Soon I will also try a wearable version of Emily's look in Corpse Bride.
Blue Eyeshadow, eye contouring, pink lips.
Again, it's gonna be wearable coz it's going to be "inspired look" only.